In between all this we've had some marvellous, beautiful moments. After a particularly trying day, I went out for a peaceful, entertaining, adult dinner with two great friends. School friends, who are luckily still wonderful friends now. We took Mischa with us, she was on her best behaviour - cooed, smiled, drank milk, then slept! We had dinner, conversation, laughing, understanding, listening. Then we moved on to a little cafe and had tea and live music and more gentle, relaxing conversation. I don't think I've been out for dinner on my own (without Sam or Ari) in a very long time. It really is a necessary of life.
And then, on Sunday - Ari, Mishi and I spent a lovely few hours sitting and drawing, talking, sewing. (I'll show sewing photos soon. Have a few final touches to put on the presents that I'm making and need to post. But very happy with the results!).
There seems to be so much, and yet nothing, happening in my life. I have lots of plans happening in my mind. And a few, just a small few, I'm pushing into happening. Taking things little-by-little.
I've set up a little sewing table in the corner of Ari's play room. It's really his bedroom, but as he hasn't slept in there for months now, and I took his bed out ages ago, I finally thought about setting up a little corner for myself. I haven't had any time::energy to turn it into the inspirational, crafty corner I want to show. But, I have been using it in my few spare::quiet moments.
I'm really so super happy with the idea of having my own little spot in the house. My own corner, where I can tell the boys not to touch, and I can have my own ideas there. Living in a little two-bedroom house with four people (okay, two are young kids/babies), and a lot of stuff (read :: junk), means that none of us have our own actual space. Yes, yes. I decorate the house, luckily Sam + I have similar personalities + ideas + creative-thought processes.
So, hopefully I'll be able to continue doing a lot more sewing. Which I really love. Generally I'm quick, lazy, wanting immediate results, and I get bored with things easily (a true Gemini). But maybe, just maybe, having this little space where I don't always have to pack up every night - it might encourage and allow and force me to be more dedicated to creating.